As the new year rolled in, Michael and I have been talking about dreams we want to pursue, how we spend our time, and how far God has brought us. It’s had us thinking back too. We’ve begun to ask ourselves (& each other) why we do certain things, say certain things, and think certain ways (marriage is the ultimate close up lol).
We got to talking about insecurities, mentalities, & habits that we’ve carried for so long, we didn’t even realize they weren’t natural parts of us. As we started to see what was holding us back, that’s when we realized; You can live how you were hard-wired, or you can live how you’ve been hot-wired.
Hardwiring is a design process that’s meant to be permanent.
Hot-wiring is a tampering process, making something (or perhaps someone) function in a way it’s not meant to.
As God has been revealing to us who He’s created us to be, He’s showing us how He designed (hard-wired) us to live our lives, in community, sharing with others, pursuing passions that glorify Him. Those should never change. He’s revealing the experiences and lessons He’s given us that have continued to design us along the way. Some trials grew our faith, some experiences stretched our patience, and still others taught us to be more grateful. This is God continually working in our hearts and our resilience.
But some things were holding us back…
some hurtful comments that cut deep, some friendships broke trust, and some things not panning out the way we hoped discouraged us more than we knew.
God is revealing these things in our lives have ‘hot-wired’ us to live in ways that shelter our insecurities. Whether it was an insensitive comment, broken trust, or failure of some kind; we, unknowingly in the moment, allow some experiences to tamper with how we see ourselves and in turn, how we act. It might not have been one tragic event that changed you, it was probably a series of small things that made you slowly doubt yourself. Or maybe it’s simply the culture you’re absorbing that pressures you to try and be someone you’re not. Song lyrics, instagram posts, tv shows, etc. can discourage us with unrealistic expectations. When we don’t fulfill them, we lose confidence. Instead of pushing our limits, they cause us to withdraw. Instead of building our faith, they question it, if we let them.
There are plenty of difficult experiences in our lives that God uses to build us and grow us for good, but people are sinners & some things leave scars. Someone may have broken your trust, but someone else desperately wants to trust you. Someone may have said something hurtful, but someone else wants to encourage you, and your hot-wired ears aren’t hearing it because somewhere deeper, you already don’t believe it. Someone may have said you can’t, but with God you can.
I like taking time at the beginning of each year to reflect and refocus, but this has felt different. It’s felt like a season of washing away old things that are in the way of the new things. There is still so much progress to be made in our lives. This post isn’t to drag you through every story of when we’ve been hurt, it’s just our realization that we have some choices in how much we let things affect us. Whether it was our own sin or the affect of someone else’s, we don’t have to go on living defensively. Jesus has fully defended us on the cross.
I wanted to share this little reminder so as we’re still beginning this year and you’re still deciding on your resolutions/goals or facing the challenge of actually tackling them, your main goal is to live the way God designed you; not how instagram filtered you, not how so-and-so said you should, & not in fear of what’s to come. Clear our the old lies & live the way God is hardwiring you, in His truth.
God says we are His children.
Galatians 4:7 //3:26 // Ephesians 1:5 // John 1:12 // 1 John 3:1-2
God says He loves us
He has a plan for each of us
Jeremiah 1:5 // 29:11
We are created in His image
Genesis 1:27 // Ephesians 2:10 //
He has saved & forgiven us
Galatians 2:20 // Ephesians 2:1-10 // 2 Corinthians 5:21
We aren’t perfect or capable of anything alone, but with God, you’ve been made for so much more than you’ve been hot-wired to believe. God is sovereign, He already knows what’s in your heart, so release it back into His hands.
“For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.”
2 Timothy 1:7 (NKJV)
“And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, “This is the way, walk in it,” when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left.”
Isaiah 30:21 ESV