How strange is this time we’re living in??
It still astounds me how suddenly this far-away headline swept into a real thing in our day-to-day lives and cancelled almost everything. Just as I was getting the hang of some good new habits this change in day to day life subconsciously became a sneaky way to let them slip away and just ‘chill’.
I quickly found myself with extra time, nowhere to go, and though I had a list of things I could definitely do, tackling things was a whole new challenge. I felt bad for the first few days that everyone else seemed so driven to work through these changes and tackle new things & I felt like my motivation had been drained. Am I the only one?
It took a few days of these mixed feelings of guilt, rest, Netflix watching, and compulsive cleaning & re-organizing for me to finally get my butt moving. I got back into my morning devotional habit & God instantly reset my heart with some verses in James.
“For where envy and self-seeking exist, confusion and every evil thing are there. But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality and without hypocrisy. Now the fruit of righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace.”James 3:16-18
“Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, spend a year there, buy and sell, and make a profit”; whereas you do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away. Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we shall live and do this or that.” But now you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil. Therefore, to him who knows to do good and does not do it, to him it is sin.”James 4:13-17
As I read these verses I was convicted that I can’t count on having plenty of time tomorrow for projects, productivity, healthy habits, and community. Just because this strange time makes me feel like I have plenty of time, is no excuse to push things until later. Rest is good, but not doing what I know God has called me to is a sin. We’re called to be good stewards of the days we are given, one day at a time.
Most of my discouraged feelings were simply because I was looking to my own desires and how my actions (or lack thereof) reflected on me, and how I felt rather than how I could be serving and sowing peace in my home. Being an introvert made this quiet time at home a little too easy for me to completely distance myself, but I’m finally choosing to make sure all this “distancing” is physical over social. Because even with all the productivity in the world, I still need a community.
It’s amazing how simply texting someone to ask how they’re doing or joining a Zoom call to catch up and see what everyone is having for dinner breaks down the social walls of quarantine. Our hearts need encouragement, and sometimes technology is the means we have to deliver that. Physical distance is absolutely called for right now, social distancing between our hearts is not.
Staying connected to church with livestreams, building tools for our small group community online, reading, writing, & prayer are ways I’m practicing seeking the wisdom from above. Resting, cleaning, organizing, painting, & even baking for the look on my husband’s face when he tasted my first ever banana bread are ways I’m sowing peace even when I’m ‘stuck’ at home. And the more I embrace these habits, the more I don’t feel stuck. I’m safe at home. I have opportunities at home. & I’m grateful to take care of my home. Michael & I played six rounds of yahtzee today, & it was absolutely the most peaceful, spiritual, & joyfully productive way we could have spent that time. That may not be a daily habit, but today that’s how we connected.
As we get through this I have a feeling (and really a hope) that we won’t return to ‘normal’. I hope we’re going to grow in this and though there will still be challenges, we’re going to become a more united and intentional community.
I’m still looking for more ways to serve others from afar so now I want to hear from YOU! How can I serve you in this time? What virtual tools would help you stay connected? And as we come through this, what will you need to rebuild?
If you’re looking for a church community, we’re live streaming City Rev church and hosting small groups online!
You can watch our live stream here live.cityrev.org
Weekend Services: Saturdays 6pm, Sundays 9am, 10:30am, & 12
Young Adults: Mondays 7:30pm
Students: Wednesdays 7pm
And you can get more information on small groups at our website https://cityrev.org
or e-mail me and I’ll help you get connected, you don’t have to be local to be a part of community.
Stay safe, healthy, & social (from a distance) friends!